Day 167 Changing Deals

After spending 18 hours in bed, I feel a lot better. Yesterday I had to tell Helen and Cornelia during the rehearsal that I was just about to fall off the chair any minute to come. At the end they helped me on the sofa and Helen very kindly walked me home. Just to realise I left my phone at church and had to walk all the way back there and home again. I wasn’t a happy bunny. I find it somewhat very awkward to say: sorry I can’t do this or that because I am exhausted. It started last Thursday and got really bad by Sunday, leaving all my muscles and joints to ache. I have to let some of the volunteering go, which is most likely going to create upset, but I need to keep one day a week for rest. I just can’t fulfil working full-time and volunteering part-time. That was not the original deal for Mission Year at all. I have to be able to say no for time to time, otherwise I won’t be able to scoop myself up by the end of July when it finishes.