Day 381-382 From the ‘PAS Truth’ to Success

As I said my favourite time of the day is having a cup of coffee in the morning, reading my devotional (Brennan Mannings: Reflections for Ragamuffins and the Celtic Daily Prayers) and from the book of books Proverbs. It challenges me every single day. I can’t put it into words how refreshing it is to be patient. I remember the long years when I was so distressed for not being able to start Vondores and bloom it into a successful enterprise and I remember the frustration as I looked at the logo I draw with by hand and tucked into a plastic sleeve. I remember deliberately hiding it into one of the 10 Ikea cardboard boxes that followed me through my university years and I remember after some months franticly looking for it and hoping I didn’t throw it into the bin in my distress. And yes, the logo was there patiently waiting for me to find it and embrace it once again. And of course the time came when a wonderful friend touched it up on a computer and it became the One that is still patiently waiting today. This time in The House with The Garden I don’t try to rush the present to the future, but the opposite waiting patiently for the right time for everything and enjoying every minute on the way. I wish I could tell this to those young souls who are frustrated upon a great idea which has to be rested in a draw. But I suppose when our adrenalin is high and our drive is on full speed, there is no time to listen. At least I didn’t. Especially all I’ve heard chanted around me, about how success was supposed to be achieved were those words I have since erased from my dictionary. And what is success? How do we define success? The quantity of money or rank? And how about the quality of success that balance the soul? And how do we define that? I remember long discussions about tutors with fellow classmates from various courses that ended in the conclusion that this and that tutor only became a tutor, because they couldn’t make it as an artist or a designer. This is a classic misconception of believing in a ‘Prematurely Arrogant, Self-righteous Truth’ as a young mind. As time went by I became to understand they were great tutors, though. And most likely the quality of their success that balanced their soul was closer to tutoring than being a great artist or a designer. And that all that matters. And there is nothing wrong with that. What’s more it was our gain as they planted creative seeds in us. That in some cases bloomed into becoming an artist or designer to balance our soul. But in other cases it lead us to many different private adventures some of us becoming mothers to plant seeds into the next generation, some of us become social entrepreneurs to plant seeds in the outskirts of big cities and small villages in Africa and some of us was rekindled with skills that has never been taken seriously before. And some of us became the subject of that ‘prematurely arrogant, self-righteous truth’ planting seeds in the next generations to gain success in what we do to balance our souls. And that all that matters.