Day 187 The Day Before

How can I put it? I found it difficult this afternoon to be on my own, I felt restless and somewhat needing to be in people’s company to be able to draw my focus away from the publication of results tomorrow. I followed Izzy from our room to the kitchen as she was cooking and when she finished back to the room. We didn’t talk much, as I was reading Karoly Gundel’s Hungarian Cookbook and she was busy with organising things. I just needed to be in the presence of someone. She said she was going to be around tomorrow when I check if I passed or failed. I know I`ve been recording most of my thesis writing journey on this blog, but seriously I can only remember the mistakes and shortcomings of it. You know when people tell you that they are sure you pass and you just think, they have no idea what the quality of your work is. Izzy said you worked very hard, which is true and this is my only comfort at the moment, but am not sure how much it is enough for. And it’s another 18 hours until I get to log on to Blackboard and see the verdict. Lord please help me, whatever the outcome is to take it with grace. Thank you. Amen.