Day 100 Celebration time!

I can’t believe I made it to the 100^th blog, but I do believe that my passion for writing has been revived. Today I am just grateful for everything I have, every breath I take and every word I write.

The thesis has 48 headings if I counted them right which means if I write about 312 words for each headings, the whole thing doesn’t seem so bad any more.

I’ve been trying to work on the bibliography for a bit this evening. It can be so stressful to leave it to the last minute. Such a tedious job I keep falling asleep.

I found this in one of my research folders just a proof of my old diary writing habits:

Research dairy Saturday, 24/01/2009

‘Although I was really determined to write a research diary regularly, I mean every day during my 6 weeks study leave, I have to confess I haven’t done it yet. I was very proud of myself when I told one of my MA course mates that I make sure every evening I take time and write down, what I’ve done on that day.

Of course, I have not succeeded, as it seemed to me I have not done anything spectacular during the last two weeks, apart from being frustrated that every day, seems to disappear without leaving a trace behind, which makes me very disappointed. Disappointed, because I asked for and got and took 6 weeks unpaid study leave from work and it seems to me that I am wasting it and frustrated because I really wanted to do a lot of research, but I don’t seem to do as much as I wanted. After 1 week, I even gave up writing my research diary task sheet as well, because the tasks from the list seamed to drag on from one day to another, whiteout having to tick any of them and not feeling even tiny bit of satisfaction by looking it.

Almost every day, I felt I have wasted another day up until today, when as lighting from heaven on the way from the bus stop to my rented flat, I got the whole picture and suddenly understood the important meaning of the struggle of this past two weeks. I was so excited, I haven’t even took my coat off, juts set down to my desk and started to scribble down, the narrowed down focus of the research, which revealed the very important meaning of my struggles of the past two weeks and even more the complexity of the happenings since the course started.`

It so much fun to be so close to the finish!