Day 113 Mini melt-down over half an hour sleep during the final push

Yesterday evening I fall asleep whilst writing the thesis. When my roommate came home I woke up and had a mini melt down over the half an hour I spent with sleeping. I was angry and disappointed with myself that I really need to keep to my schedules now and instead what do I keep doing? Fall asleep. The mini meltdown consisted of some rather peculiar inability to tolerate typing noises around me and an overall inside cry for a place in the flat where I could be on my own and concentrate. I moved to the living room and just by the time I got into the nitty-gritty what Yvonne told me on Study Support, Stephen popped his head through the door asking me about our next Love Shack meal and proceeded on to the sofa to work on his laptop. I started to panic thinking where can I go. Izzy was in our bedroom, the kitchen was taken and now the living room was shared as well. I did play with the thought of sitting on the downstairs loo, but my laptop was charging and there is no socket around there. At the end I asked Di and Jonathan in the kitchen to let me know when they finish with dinner. They finished already and gave me some really lovely encouragement and prayed. That was around 22.30 and after that I was up until 1am working through the bits Yvonne helped me with. She got my old course leader’s e-mail and translated it to simple English. She told me I need to try to like that woman again, she actually tried to help me, but it was a shame she wrote all her comments in underlined red, which really freaked me out. So now I am adding and correcting the first half of the thesis and a bit concerned at the same time, that I still have a lot to do on the second half and I only have 6 days left.

Something amazing happened. Diana offered that I could use her printer, if mine won’t work. I bought ink for mine a while ago and was thinking I just can’t get other one, but same day in the evening someone rang me to say would like to bless me with a very small amount of money. Praise God I am going to have a little money towards the ink!